This blog kicked off with a 30 before 30, which I did not complete. And I was happy in the incompletion of this task. Because this task was to keep me busy, and focused on what I could do, achieve, be. But I rediscovered myself and found a new love, a new life, the old me. And so I didn’t need these reminders.

And now, everything has changed, and yet nothing has changed. Who I am is growing stronger by the day. I am becoming more me than I ever was before. And that’s a gift.

And yet my old life continues to haunt me. The old me. The one that just let things happen. That had so much to prove that she blinded herself.

The ghosts of that person and those choices have not been set free. And they have not gone to rest. They hover over me. And sometimes we occupy the same space and the same time and it’s almost as if we are the same person once again.

But we are not. And we never will be.

In the cycle of Brahma, Vishnu and Shiva, the world is spinning over faster. I create, sustain and destroy. And with each destruction of my life I rise further. A phoenix from the flames. Becoming my true self.

I have a destiny. A desire. A drive. An ambition.

You will see.